..in rags?
No, this isn’t about anything old, borrowed, new, or blue.
the three of us went out to get something to wear for some weddings we’re attending. not because i really want to wear something new, but it is merely because there’s nothing i own that’s appropriate enough, and the primary factor is because i have gained some unnecessary extra pounds – thus the new clothes.
today being the election day, the mall was so full of people (remind me not to go there in the next five years, ok? 
). men, women, children everywhere.
the initial plan was to get some clothes, check out some books – about diet, too – in the three bookstores there, watch the movie. yet, history tells us that neither of them happened.
people queued everywhere: movie, restaurants, restrooms. and somehow that got on my nerves. this negative feeling was worsened with the fact that finding a piece that fits me was so difficult! so many to choose from, yet there’s nothing i like.
we did get some things, though, and i’m glad now we did. 
but i was already too upset to notice this then, and my anger got the best of me. what’s been good and enjoyable was forgotten. i grew sullen, i was in such a sour mood i dragged my bag along with me, like linus with his blanket. and it also was getting late, so we – well, he, actually- decided to go home. still full of anger, if i may add. the mood hadn’t changed until we got home.
i wanted to discuss this with him, but he said that it was too late he should just go home. out of sudden rage i threw away the bag.
seeing this, he told me to pick it up and then he sat down. tears of anger stung my eyes but he then said something that went straight to my being.
‘don’t throw things away just like that. what do you think bought that stuff? who gave you the money to buy it?‘
all this, said in a soothing tone, made me realize that i truly had done a stupid thing, i had been so ungrateful.
i calmed down, and further he said to me, how satan loves these kinds of situation, laughing at us when someone’s angry, unable to control his emotion, covered in negative thoughts. upon hearing this i wiped my eyes dry, tried to smile, and said to him that i don’t want to be laughed at.
yea, true that i haven’t got any clothes today, but there’s still tomorrow, right? and we had so much fun today. no need to think about those silly negative whispers that sneaked into the brain. we had more fun!
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among so many blessings given to me, he’s one of the greatest.
<thank you for letting him come into my life and make things better and a whole lot more beautiful..>
